Woke up today realizing that chronic low-grade sinusitis back again--now six times in a row after finishing 10 day antibiotic regimes (going back to mid-December).

Completely my fault to be so short-sighted. Should have brought up with regular doc long before now, because it's clear we needed to switch to broader band, lower strength antibiotic for much longer regimen to root this out.

Simply me thinking short-term (get me through this week!) during run-up to book and nine weeks since--very male, very macho, very stupid.

What urped out last night on the blog was the same extremely dark depression that seems to presage--like clockwork--the onset of obvious infection (meaning acute).

So for close readers and potential clients of my speaking services: skip the dark bit about me possibly ditching a speaking career.

Truer answer will be heard tonight on Hugh at end of second hour: I will focus on Enterra and Development-in-a-Box‚Ñ¢ (both here in troubled America and abroad) because it's just plain breaking out big-time and I consider it--with Steve--to be a huge part of my life/legacy. But, when Hugh then countered with, "So less speaking and writing?" I replied, "Nah, I'm too big of a ham to give up the stage."

Plus, as I noted to Hugh, the grand strategist (not self-described, just self-actualized) is--by nature--a total evangelist. I couldn't stop proselytizing if I tried.

Plus, I'm landing seriously nice gigs in early 2010, to include a return to Africa. So I am getting psyched!

So no question, armed with the right meds, I stay in the game, all dark and stormy nights aside.

Plus, I'm subsisting, as I always do during creative crises (post-book depression), by reading another Beatles book (Lennon bio) and re-watching "Anthology."

Gotta gear up for the return to more persistent high-rev interactions with the dynamo that is DeAngelis!